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If you're not interested in my personal trouble I suggest you don't read this. It is just my usual rambling.
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I don't know what to do with my life anymore (no, I'm not suicidal). I'm not happy in college and I don't have any friends. Ever since High School ended my friends and I followed different paths. I'm a loner now and I can bring myself to talk to anyone at all. I'm not good with that.
My last remaining friend walked out on me because I "didn't try hard enough".
Not long ago, one of my colleagues started talking to me. It was nice. He's a sweet guy and very interesting to talk to. But he doesn't wants to stay friends. He asked me out and I just don't want to be alone anymore so I said yes.
I really thought he could maybe introduce me to some new people, considering he has a rather large range of friends, but it's not happening. I'm terrible socializing and I can't iniciate a conversation for the life of me. Things only flowed with this guy because he came up to me. Every day all I expect is for someone to at least try and get to know me, because, otherwise, I don't know if I'm able to make any new friends.
Now, I'm on the verge of having a anxiety attack because I'm going to the movies with a guy. I'm not ready for this. Dating is too much. I just want people that can be there for me, nothing else.
Writing used to be the only thing that made me happy, your comments and favorites used to bring me life, now it all seems dull and, even though wiritng is still some sort of stress reliever it doesn't seem to do the trick anymore. The loneliness is starting to eat me up.
I'm exhasperated because I can't keep a conversation with anyone. It gets to a point where people get bored or give up on me because of that. It's frustating.
My stomach is churning and my head seems to be about to explode. I just want to lay down and stay in bed for the rest of my life.
I know that's not the place to say those things, I just don't know where elso to go or who to talk to. I'm sorry I haven't submited anything I promised, I just don't have the energy to put into anything.
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I don't know what to do with my life anymore (no, I'm not suicidal). I'm not happy in college and I don't have any friends. Ever since High School ended my friends and I followed different paths. I'm a loner now and I can bring myself to talk to anyone at all. I'm not good with that.
My last remaining friend walked out on me because I "didn't try hard enough".
Not long ago, one of my colleagues started talking to me. It was nice. He's a sweet guy and very interesting to talk to. But he doesn't wants to stay friends. He asked me out and I just don't want to be alone anymore so I said yes.
I really thought he could maybe introduce me to some new people, considering he has a rather large range of friends, but it's not happening. I'm terrible socializing and I can't iniciate a conversation for the life of me. Things only flowed with this guy because he came up to me. Every day all I expect is for someone to at least try and get to know me, because, otherwise, I don't know if I'm able to make any new friends.
Now, I'm on the verge of having a anxiety attack because I'm going to the movies with a guy. I'm not ready for this. Dating is too much. I just want people that can be there for me, nothing else.
Writing used to be the only thing that made me happy, your comments and favorites used to bring me life, now it all seems dull and, even though wiritng is still some sort of stress reliever it doesn't seem to do the trick anymore. The loneliness is starting to eat me up.
I'm exhasperated because I can't keep a conversation with anyone. It gets to a point where people get bored or give up on me because of that. It's frustating.
My stomach is churning and my head seems to be about to explode. I just want to lay down and stay in bed for the rest of my life.
I know that's not the place to say those things, I just don't know where elso to go or who to talk to. I'm sorry I haven't submited anything I promised, I just don't have the energy to put into anything.
I've been tagged (3)
I've been tagged a while ago by ~PenandKey (https://www.deviantart.com/penandkey), but only now I'm able to answer it. So, here it goes:
Rules:
1. You must post these rules
2. Each person has to share 10 facts about themselves
3. Answer the ten questions asked by the person who tagged you and make up 10 questions for your ten tags
4. Choose ten people and put their icon in your journal
5. Go to their page and inform them that they have been tagged by you.
6. NOT something like " you are tagged if you read that"
7. You have to legitimately tag 10 people
8. No tag backs
9. You can't say that you don't do tags
10. You MUST make a journal entry
Ten Facts:
1. My dog
Back from the dead.
Yes. It's true. At least I hope it is.
Same-sex marriage is now constitutional in every state on the US and my finals are over since last friday (it couldn't have been a better day). To celebrate I shall soon submit the Soulmate installment for Black Widow. I know most of you are female so, it makes sense right? I don't use pronouns though, which means any and all people can relate to the reader.
Tomorrow I should be done with a Scarlet Witch one shot somebody asked me for ages ago. And, finally, the four remaining one shots for the Soulmate thing. Yes, you heard it right, 4. Clint, Thor and two extra special characters.
And, now, if yo
Long time no see.
I know I've been gone for a while. I had good reasons to do so. This journal is supposed to be just an update on my life so you know when I'll be back submitting.
Anyway, I've spoken with that guy I told you about in my last 2 journal entries, I explained I wasn't ready for any sort of romantic relationship and he understood, not only that but he also suggested we became friends. I accepted... We didn't. I think he was only being polite, because he stopped talking to me almost completely. Oh, well.
I showed up at my best friend's birthday without her knowing and she was rather pleased, it actually served for us to make up. Now, we're back
What's up
So... I went out with that guy.
And we watched Mad Max and I need to say that the movie was the only ok part of the date.
I'm in love with Imperator Furiosa and Tom Hardy will always be one of my favorite actors. It might have been a little crazy at times, but, in general, the storyline was great.
That's all I will say about the movie. I don't want to give you spoilers and I'm not in the mood to write a whole review.
But, seriously, Charlize Theron is my new hero. Thay should change the name of the movie form "Mad Max" to "Furiosa". Just saying.
And this is my new source of happines (ignore it if you haven't seen the 9th and at least the
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